There I was, thinking that Mrs Twisted Cunt and I had turned a corner and things were starting to look much better, when suddenly I’m plunged back into the no-sex-wilderness that causes me so many problems. After a couple of weeks of bits of sexual attention here and there, we’re now back to her being non-sexual unless I really push for something to happen.

In the past few weeks there have only been two sexual encounters between us. The first was when I insisted, late at night, on pulling her jeans and panties down while she was reclining on out couch late at night, and devouring her cunt and asshole until she shuddered with the pleasure of a couple of intense orgasms. The second, two nights later, was me being unable to sleep and somehow deciding to start stroking her in bed, which led to another heavy oral sex session while she was half asleep. Of course, I was the only one actually doing any licking – she just lay there enjoying the attention and rubbing her clitoris as I worked on both her holes.

I fucking love licking pussy and ass. There’s not a lot better in the world than the sight, feel, smell, and taste of a wet pussy, and there’s not much better than the taboo dirty feeling as you use your tongue to pleasure her most secret hole. Ass licking and pussy licking are fucking amazing. If I could, I’d line up most of her female friends and go from one to the next, furiously lapping at their cunts until each of them screams in ecstasy. I’m not the sort of guy who wants something back for my troubles, probably because I get so much pleasure from giving pleasure.

The problem that I’m once again faced with is the sack-of-potatoes syndrome. She just lies there, taking all the attention and giving nothing back. That’s unhealthy. One partner in a relationship is extremely giving, whilst the other is extremely selfish, and this reflects right through just about every other aspect of our relationship.

Sexually, she does next to nothing, and my brain can’t handle it. She doesn’t touch my dick. She doesn’t kiss me in exciting places. She doesn’t squeeze my ass cheek as I walk past unless she knows that it’s safe for her to do it. That means if the kids are running around and there’s no chance of any sex between us, then I might get a playful pinch on my butt. Embracing and kissing is something that I love, but she only does it if she thinks it’s “safe”.

It’s unhealthy for me to dwell on these things, but I’m a guy, and a guy needs to feel that his woman wants him. Some of her friends have confessed to pretending that they fancy their husbands, and while I don’t like the idea of that, it would be much, much better than the nothingness that exists right now. It’s a permanent rejection, and although I know in my heart that it’s not me with the problems, that won’t change the fact that my woman finds me so repulsive. So repulsive that she can’t even touch me. Can’t even take my dick in her hand. Won’t bother to even pretend that she likes being intimate with me. What a shit feeling.

All in all it’s a major fuck up, and one that I’m finding it increasingly hard to live with, hard to live with without frequently throwing bitter and sarcastic comments at her. Of course, if I raise the subject of sex with her then that ruins any chance I have of intimacy because I shouldn’t talk about it if it makes her feel bad. Catch 22, I believe. Discuss sex and I get no sex. Don’t discuss sex and I get no sex.

So where does it leave me? Where does it leave us? I’m staying optimistic that the future with my otherwise-great-gal holds a voyage of sexual rediscovery. I have to think that way or it’s all over, and I love this girl completely. The thing that she doesn’t understand is that every day that passes is another rejection of me as a man, and one of the most basic needs for a human being is to be loved. I haven’t got that. I’m not sure that she loves me, although I am completely sure that me being a really good father and dad to our four incredible children keeps me in the picture….for now.

So I’ll keep on masturbating, closing my eyes and imagining my life with a woman that is not only beautiful and sexy, but also thinks that I’m deserving of a little sexual attention now and then. I just want to be wanted.

As Twisted Cunt is a porn blog, and not a moaning-about-shit blog, I’ve decided to include some juicy amateur sex movies with this post. Amateur sex will always be one of my great fall backs when things get sexually tough for me. I get turned on by and take great comfort from knowing that there are women out there that enjoy having sex with their man.

Happy sexual times!

All models are over 18.